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January 27th, 2008
08:19 pm - Le sigh
I am getting tired. Tired of waking up everyday waiting for death. I am a hermit who hides in his shell finding acceptance and happiness through nothing. I don't understand anyone anymore. I don't understand earth. I cannot find the beauty I once saw in things, everything is clouded and pessimistic to me. The only reason I hang on is for my mother because she is amazing and can see the good in almost anything. So I will continue, take these pills to change my being, truge though the muck that is life until I can finally sleep forever.
I want to explode I don't know what I want or who I am but I need it. Its getting too hard to hang on.
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May 24th, 2006
07:44 pm
its been quite a while since i've posted a public update.. almost said bulletin. anyways im really in a reflective mood right now sort of autistic... its interesting
just did some really awesome longboarding that realy helped organize my thoughts a little bit until people started trying to run me over (i deserve it haha)
im almost done with asl three and excited to take asl four and become an interpritor or at least be fluent. i really want to go visit wing wong (yes that's her real name) a deaf woman in my nieghborhood who i hope will keep me talking all summer so i wont be too behind when i start school in the fall.
moving to seattle this fall with tera. really excited to be really poor.
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March 17th, 2006
01:59 pm
I am so excited for...
~sasquatch (beck and blue scholars are going to be there ahhhh)
~going to see my sister and niece in two weeeks
~that i dont have to work weekends anymore
~that i have music now when i go running (my headphones are awesome)
~that the quarter is over and i finished my 13 page paper
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December 16th, 2005
09:42 pm
i hate those nights where there is nothing to do. GRRR
CHERIE M. Perkins is a bitch for not calling me back. hha
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03:06 am
im ready to leave this small world we call the northwest and meet new people.
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December 13th, 2005
09:50 pm - I am the worst person in the entire world...
Tonight at about 4.58 pm, i hit jon isenhour with my car. he was on his skate board on caldart and i had just turned. he thought i was one of his friends and that i saw him. i didnt. i was going about 25 and i smacked into him. he almost penetrated my winshield. he was on the ground and moaning with i got out of the car. a few people rushed over and i went to call 911. he was talking and telling me that he was in pain. he was rushed to the hospital and as a mirical turns out, he ended up with some scrapes and no brokent bones but man if you would have seen it happend, i dont think i will be driving for a while...
Current Mood:  worried
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December 12th, 2005
10:21 pm
the anorexia starts now.
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December 11th, 2005
01:35 am
Did everyone but me know that the Chronicals of Narnia was about jesus?
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November 18th, 2005
12:29 am
I think its finally time for some closure
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November 14th, 2005
01:12 pm
I am the world's biggest dumb ass with money. Sold my skateboard to a consignment shop a while ago for 36 bucks... which i paid 180 for. My mom bought me a longboard (which i never ride because its too cold and rainy right now). Also the worst of everything is that my hospital bill is going to be over 1000 dollars and im going to have to tell my mom exactly what happened to get her financial support.
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